The Demo Site

its sweetness
its sweetness brings delight
to my tongue
eating them gives pleasure
its taste is like no other
but i know it burns my soul in hell
the way my tooth aches
it is how guilt creeps within me
brush my teeth to ease the pain
as to ask for forgiveness to cleanse my soul
but its sweetness
can't help it
i still eat them

i tried
how i tried not to eat them
try hard to fight the urge of eating them
not anymore
but its taste still lingers
it always haunts me
it is tempting
addicting
so addicting that i cant resist
but give in to it
i have warred with myself
but i always loss
i still eat them

-aLoN

I admit. I'm still angry. I'm still angry with you. I'm still angry with what is happening between us right now. I shouldn't have cared about this, I know. But as much as I don't want myself to think about it, I can't help myself to still care. I still care about the friendship we have lost. About the friendship I believe you valued before as much as I do until now. About the friendship you chose to turn your back on.

How could you? How could you let it go. It saddens me so much. It saddens me even more to know that you have let it go EASILY.

I wanted to talk to you. There are just so many things I wanted to tell you. So many questions I wanted to ask. How could you let me down? You have no idea how it feels. How could you make me feel as one of the dearest persons in your life and suddenly made me feel like I'm the most stupid thing you want to get rid of.

I wanted to talk to you because I want you to know that I'm blaming you. I told you so, that it might bring no good to us. Now, the worst really happened. I wish you never felt those feelings you told me you had for me. Maybe things would've been different. Maybe things wouldn't be as bad as it is right now. And maybe we will still have our friendship. But I guess its too late for maybes.

I wanted to talk to you because I want you to know that I'm also blaming myself. I over reacted with some things and I easily get irritated with you. I haven't noticed that I'm treating you badly. I regret the things I have said and done that might have hurt you. I'm not proud of them. And I am terribly sorry for it. From the bottom of my heart, I am very sorry.

I wish to talk to you but you didn't give me the chance. You think there's no need for it and that we should just live like this with no hatred. But I doubt if there's really no more hatred.

I would've begged you if that's what it takes to have our friendship back. But you have already decided and made up your mind. I would've done anything just to save our friendship but I don't want to spend my time trying to fix things when you already made it clear that it's hopeless to do so. So you left me no choice but to let go.

-aLoN